The journey of finding Mr. Right

29 October 2010

aneh, weird

that what i feel now,,,,

mendadak tadi malem i was dreaming of you,,,,,,

jelas, sangat jelas,,,,,

it was so clear, i can see your face,,,,

we were with our own, but it felt so close,,,,

i can feel you breathing, i can touch you, even i can hear your voice,,,,

it was still the same like our last meeting 3 years ago,,,,

but i know that u're belong to someone else at that time

i was tryin to run away from you,,,

run away from you scent, that could make me high

but wherever i go i just keep seeing you there

i asked you what do you want from me, you just smiling without say a little words

i ran, ran, and ran, and ran,,,,,

but wherever i go, there you are,,,,

and suddenly there was your bride, standing so far away,,,,,

dressing like a princess,,

i ran again, but still u keep trying to chasing me,,,

it was hurt when you keep to chase me,,,

while u dont want to stay with me,,,

i'm tired of running away and i jumped into the ocean

but, there you are saving me from drowning,,,

but then you walked away,,,

then i woke up

seeing i'm all by myself like usual,,,,

like the running three years,,,

thinking of you, just like i do in almost my every nite lately,,,

why??

why u keep running in my mind,,,,

i try to let you go

we know, or it was just me, that we can go any further,,,,

u keep tryin to seeing someone else while i was not around

i think it was the signal that you want to leave me

so why when i leave you, you keep tryin to find me?

may be we still don't know what is wrong with our path, why each of us take the different path in our life?

i was know that you will find her, right away u leave me,,,

and i'm just right,,,

you get her just couple months after the break up

i still trying to hate you,,, but still don't know how

becoz, i always know that you will leave me for her,,,

becoz i'm the first one to know that u were fallin in luv with her,,,

even before you realize it,,,

it was me seeing your eyes smiling for her, and your voice getting happier talking about her...

i was hurt, but i'm happy for you

u said don't cry, and be strong at that time,,,

i've try to be strong, but the tears keep coming

may be it will be easier for me if you walk away from me, and never contact me in any way

so i have a chance to hate you,,, :((

but whatever i do, still i can't hate you,,,