dizzy...

i don't know what came into my mind when i write this note.
some one could be very mad at me, if he read this story...
but, i just don't care bout it...

i just want to share my feelings,
and i want they could understand it.

it started by Mr. W who suddenly came back into my life again after the long....
long....
long.....
time......
it was really long time...
we lost each other i guess. he came on 2007, having a small chit chat with me...
talking about out past.. and Bum! we argued bout our status...
well I don't love him,(finally i realized it). It was just a crush, not more....
he felt upset and left....

now he back, Married to a such beautiful girl...
I'm happy for them...
but, i have a craziest thought in my mind....

what if i collect all of my ex boyfriends in my account??
well, i have 3 of them right now. which I can reach....
I just want to have such a good relationship with them,,,
because I never have a well broke up for each of them (for 6 guys?? :D)
I just want to have a nice friendship at least....
but it means that i have to contact Mr.S who really broke me down
and i still can't compromise with my anger to him...

well he was the one who I care the most, but I have a dizzy feeling every time i saw his face...
still keep my feeling for him. this feeling was mixed out with, love, care, anger, mad, and a huge of upset feeling....
so i will eliminate him on my list then...

(Q iki ngemeng opo sech? kok aneh tenan? ra nyambung blaz.... :D)